A little over a year ago I lost my job, it was a great job, and I worked with people that I mostly liked. I was relieved the day it happened. It was like a burden had been lifted off of my shoulders. But there was still a sadness to it that I couldn’t quite put my finger on. Then it hit me, losing my job was like losing my boyfriend. In the beginning, I couldn’t wait to get rid of him, but now I missed him, and I missed the friends that we shared.
Our breakup wasn’t ugly or loud or violent. It was quiet. It was the type where both of us knew it was time because we had drifted apart. We were holding each other back, but neither one of us wanted to admit it. I knew that he no longer fulfilled me. I had stopped growing, and I no longer found comfort in his arms. My eyes started to wander, and my heart wanted to know what else was out there. Could I be happier with a new boyfriend? But instead of talking with him, I started talking with his friends. I started telling them how unhappy I was and that I was going to leave him. And then it just happened, I found comfort in the arms of another, and it was love at first sight. We would be up until the wee hours of the morning. I would think about him every hour of the day he was my first thought when I woke up and the last one before I went to bed. I would focus all my attention on him for 12-15 hours straight. I would only stop to shower or eat. All I could do was dream about us and tell stories about our future together. My boyfriend had no idea where I had gone. It was like I had become a different person and vanished overnight.
My boyfriend wasn’t a jealous lover, but he knew he deserved better. He knew he deserved the love of someone who would love him back. He wanted 100% of my attention and I just didn’t have it to give. I had found the love of my life and I wasn’t willing to give it up … not even for him. I had found the love of writing, and nothing would ever be the same again.
About a month before the “break up,” I remember meeting with him and telling him that it wasn’t working and that I would stay as long as he needed me to. Looking back at it now, I think “how arrogant was I to think that he needed me and that I needed to let him down easy.”
Over the six years that we had been together we had always been upfront with one another. It was part of what made us work. So, when he walked in that fateful day, I knew that it was the end. He didn’t even have to say a word. I know that was the last day we would be together. But my pride was hurt, I thought
“How could you break up with me…I was going to break up with you! How could you push me aside when I thought you needed me to stand up?”
But that was just it, we had both grown. We had become strong and could stand on our own. Together we had become better for knowing one another, but it was time for us to be apart. Our season was over, and it was time for a new story to begin.
Yesterday, I saw my old work friends and immediately it brought me back to a year ago and that day that we “broke up.” I was sad because I missed them. But when I got home, I realized that our season had passed and that I needed to be thankful for it and move on. In the end, it was the only way I would become the person God always intended me to be.
Appreciate your past, be evergreen, ever loving, and ever learning today and everyday forward. Life is short remember the good times and good people that you have met and loved along the way.
~ The End & New Beginning ~
We all have stories to tell, but some of us have a burning desire to write them down and share them with the world. I understand that desire and how scary it can be. When I decided to write and teach others how to share their stories, it scared me to death. But today, I am so grateful for the journey. My life has changed 100% for the better and so can yours.
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Until we meet again…